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The Spreading of the Ashes ok, my stuff is still in another email account, so i've gotta send it all to the other account. it's all saved on my puter too, but if any of the 3 goes away, i panic. i can NOT lose that stuff. it's me it's my emotions. it's my soul. so i've not written anything since we spread my father's ashes (9-29). i miss creating. i've not made anything with a lasting value in a while. a few people have shown me that my words to them are lasting, but i need more. the last song i wrote: I don't want to be alone tonight After the spreading of the ashes I don't trust my hands After the spreading of the ashes I don't trust myself After the spreading of the ashes I don't trust in heaven After the spreading of the ashes There's no pain I haven't felt There's no wall I haven't built There's no way that I've never lied There's no reason I've never cried There's no blood I haven't shed There's no reason I left my bed There's no way I haven't gone There's no battle that I have won There's no answer that I have known There's no path that I've been shown There's no God that I have seen There's no savior where I'm going There's no love I can taste And all of this I can't erase I don't want to be alone tonight After the spreading of the ashes I don't trust my hands After the spreading of the ashes I don't trust myself After the spreading of the ashes I don't trust in heaven After the spreading of the ashes this is me.i was writed on 2001-12-02 at 2:24 a.m. i was writed before this and i was writed after this i make comments here and you can make comments here |