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i think i did good tonight. i put up a fairly successrful apathetic front. no one knew my heart skipped a beat when She touched my hand. no one knew i had trouble looking Her in the eyes. no one was any wiser that i was happy enough that i was sad. no one knew i longed for what used to be, what could be, but will never be.

"everyone's afraid of there own lives. if you could be anything you'd wanna be, you be dissappointed. am i right?"