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poverty to pain like a bad tempered prom queen at a homecoming dance Is how i feel. i'm just letting everything fall apart. i realize i'm doing it, but i i'm not changing anything. i'm currently letting life run me, i'm not in charge anymore. i've gotta change things. things have changed me too much. this is not my life. this is not me. i hate this. people might be getting blown off more now, since i've gotta do things for myself. priority number 1 is get a job so i don't feel completely worthless. i've been dwelling on the fact that my step-sister called me cheap at christmas. i got her a $15 gift certificate. alll of my family got $15 or less worth of gifts from me. yet, after christmas, i've got $5 in my bank acount, since i DON'T HAVE A FUCKING JOB BECAUSE I'M A LAZY FUCKING BASTARD AND I'M TOO FUCKING EGOTISTICAL TO JUST BLAME MYSELF. it is my fault though. i know people have known this all along. i figure you've been entertained with all the excuses i've created. that's not why i created them. i created them because i'm weak. i'm fucking weak and it hurts me to say it. but here it is. i'm just as weak and mortal as everyone else. this is me.i was writed on 2002-12-27 at 2:06 p.m. i was writed before this and i was writed after this i make comments here and you can make comments here |