so many fucking tears

my eyes hurt so bad i can barely keep them open. still, i keep crying. i don't know how much longer i can cry before my tear ducts just quit.

i hate myself so much because i know
this is all my fault

"just a reflection, just a glimpse, just a little reminder of all the what-abouts and all the might've-c-c-c-could've beens. another day, some other way to find another reason now to continue."