21 minus 30

in my time zone, it's my birthday in 35 minutes. i'm sitting alone at the Big Blue Monster because someone left the door unlocked. the residents will probably return around 1:30. i hope they don't get upset when they returned that i have intruded. i had nowhere else to go that i could listen to music above the volume of a whisper. and i need music right now. i'd love company right now. shit, i need a hug right now. but we don't always get what we need. that's why people starve to death and people set themselves on fire in the middle of the street.

"but i'm still a big kid
as another man
and i'd much rather give
as another man
still i'm singin' in the rain
as another man
ain't nothing gonna change
as another man."